revenge is sweet

i'll prove it

2005-10-27T00:26:01Z

sXe

peenksham_pain @ 2005-09-19T22:03:00

2005-09-20T05:09:30Z

we will always remember you both. i find it kind of depressing to think i have no actual pictures of you so i'm making due with this one. everyone who knew you loved you both. you went from inches across to big brother and little sister. they were an awesome three years and i'll never forget them. the food chain sucks and you didn't deserve that. i love you whole-heartedly and i will forever and ever. you were always so reliable to be there when i came home. to run away and hide under the shelfs and play in the grass while i cleaned your habitat. you ran faster than me. you went through a couple homes for many reasons and you never complained. much love to my babies. rest in piece charlie and myrtle<3

i quit♥

2005-09-11T22:29:42Z

goodbye to you. i'm turning a new leaf and getting my life back. you just aren't worth it anymore. we had some good times but ultimately when it comes between you and the amazing friends i have, i am going to choose them. thanks for everything. have fun =]

peenksham_pain @ 2005-09-10T17:29:00

2005-09-11T00:33:11Z

you do care and its obvious thats what angers you, but you must understand i care about myself more than any of you combined. i won't stop something i do in my free time, to please those around me. its just not who i am and i'm sorry if i ever gave you that impression. tonight i will fend for myself. i've gotten pretty good at it since the last couple weeks of summer. alaska is for the cold-hearted♥ goodnight world. see you tomorrow-

peenksham_pain @ 2005-07-31T14:02:00

2005-07-31T21:02:41Z

photoshop is false advertising♥

peenksham_pain @ 2005-07-02T12:07:00

2005-07-02T19:06:07Z

</tr

M	Misunderstood
A	Arty
X	Xenophobic
I	Insane
N	New
E	Enjoyable

everyone's got somewhere to be

2005-06-30T22:51:59Z

theres no light at the end of the tunnel tonight, just some bridge that i've got to burn

im just so sick if being the heart at diposal for this. i wont dwell. i wont even bother because obviously neither would you-

peenksham_pain @ 2005-06-18T17:02:00

2005-06-19T00:05:22Z

JON STETTER & MAXINE ULARTE have made a livejournal alloted specifically for use as a journal to show others we know what we do with our lives and we enjoy it all so there is no reason to be concerned.

nyguh__woot

peenksham_pain @ 2005-06-07T19:50:00

2005-06-08T02:57:41Z

TODAY SUCKED:

waiting for the bus a water balloon was thrown at me
i took a cold shower this morning
i cut my arm trying to shave ultra fast
someone yelled out SLUT
i realized i have never had a birthday party =/

i then remembered it could always be worse. haley sausner i love you so much sweetie and im here whenever you need me. i got to you as fast as i could, and ill pray for you and yours every second. HAPPY BIRTHDAY ROLAND ROBERT GULLIXSON!~!~!

peenksham_pain @ 2005-06-06T14:40:00

2005-06-06T21:42:28Z

panda bears eat up to 16 hours a day. bats hang upside down because their legs are too small to support their entire body mass. well at least i eat less than a panda and can still stand upright. diet starts soon.

peenksham_pain @ 2005-06-05T09:52:00

2005-06-05T17:22:45Z

nicole tauber... i love you<3

hahahahahha... as if

we baked galletas...muy deliciosa!

isn't we supposed to be having a fiesta?

peenksham_pain @ 2005-06-02T18:26:00

2005-06-03T01:27:29Z

i need the smell of summer i need its noises in my ears

peenksham_pain @ 2005-06-01T17:15:00

2005-06-02T00:24:42Z

so i guess theres a new definition to being the bigger person: to feel forced into making the right choice without any sort of recognition just to make someone you care about happier that youre gone, no matter how much it hurts you.

peenksham_pain @ 2005-05-25T16:20:00

2005-05-25T23:26:05Z

new-official-here-to-stay-never-going-away screen name:
maxeenieweenie
<3

peenksham_pain @ 2005-05-24T18:56:00

2005-05-25T02:00:50Z

maxine will be attending granada hills high for summer school because geometry b just wasnt her thing ><.

p.s. i made the big gesture.

peenksham_pain @ 2005-05-21T12:45:00

2005-05-21T20:01:20Z

nobody realizes now that im the same person... everybody has this joint thought that maxine has indeed gone a little insane... im going to go cuddle up with huhbeebee (my only friend who happens to be the puppy im taking care of while ericas "on vacation") and try my hardest to avoid these few things that hurt me oh so much:

-chris guidry being mad at me
-jake blaming me for everything bad under the sun and that has to do with his existance
-my best friend with a penis ~~convincing~~ wanting himself to hate me and fall back in love with someone he knows isnt right for him (ohk i know it isnt my place to say anything but if you all knew what a horrible position he put me in.... he just isnt the same anymore... its disgusting and i miss the old him)
-my sister lying to my dad and telling me that if im not blonde tan and wearing abercrombie im ugly or weird
-my mom going away again
-having to be the perfect daughter a.k.a. elected housekeeper
-being overweight for my height and needing to "hit the weights" but not wanting to
-the entire school assuming they know who i am now...
-and if i could name everything im sure id make myself seem even more pathetic

tonight im going to go to jodis<3 party and fake my disgusting smile again but all the while try to make the most of it... im a lost case at this point-

peenksham_pain @ 2005-05-09T18:58:00

2005-05-10T02:10:53Z

so due to the fact my computer has been being completly unreasonable i havent had the chance to post in several days... to help you catch up on the wonderful yet unfruitful life that is mine... here:

~had a mothers day BBQ (minus my mom)
~~~NGV~~
~failing geometry
~guys only give hickeys to girls who they dont respect
~colorado guys coming back on friday
~IM HAVING A LEMONADE STAND!

peenksham_pain @ 2005-04-28T16:17:00

2005-04-28T23:31:19Z

i dreamed it would be nameless bliss
as i loved, loved to be,
and to this object did i press
as blind as eagerly.

when i said forever i meant it... im sorry it took me so long to realize just how much you mean to me. you were the only person who ever saw me as someone worth being around and enjoyed my company unconditionally... until now. i know it is nothing personal and that you just need your space. the point of this entry isnt to make you look bad in any way. i just want you to know i will miss you more now than ever before... now that youre so untouchable.

pawn the TV for mary-j

2005-04-27T03:28:50Z

beautiful no matter what they say
words can't bring me down
beautiful in every single way
yes words can't bring me down
so don't you bring me down today

to all your friends you're delirious
so consumed in all your doom
trying hard to fill the emptiness, the pieces gone,
left the puzzle undone, isn't that the way it is?

no matter what we do,
no matter what we say,
we're the song inside the tune,
full of beautiful mistakes
and everywhere we go,
the sun will always shine.

peenksham_pain @ 2005-04-24T12:05:00

2005-04-24T19:10:36Z

when you lose a part of yourself to somebody you know, it takes alot to let go. every breath that you remember, pictures fade away but memories forever.

peenksham_pain @ 2005-04-23T12:36:00

2005-04-23T19:41:57Z

a couple days ago on the way to PE

haley: i was like W-T-F
maxine: *spells out W-T-F in sign language*
haley: I DONT SPEAK HANDS!!!

peenksham_pain @ 2005-04-19T08:11:00

2005-04-19T15:20:09Z

this last weekend i took a trip to a small town past santa maria where my dad grew up called nipomo to visit my aunt and uncle. on the way there i counted a total of 5 accidents. five families on their way to visit relatives. five guys on their way to work. five people who never wouldve expected to be turned over on the side of the road. as we made our way safely home i thought about how fortunate i was. you must live your life alive wherever you are and wherever youre going. you could be dead before you ever even get there.

best friends!

2005-04-14T04:23:03Z

ROXANNE CHRISTINE HERNANDEZ...

you are my best friend. we caught up tonight and i feel like a part of me that was gone for a long time just came back. ive missed you you burrito. <333

peenksham_pain @ 2005-04-12T16:03:00

2005-04-12T23:08:05Z

i never meant to hurt you.
im sorry.

peenksham_pain @ 2005-04-06T18:53:00

2005-04-07T01:58:11Z

wine should bear a warning label.